Monday, May 31, 2010

Show Me a Man of God : Epictetus

Show me a Man of God.
Show me a man modeled after the doctrines
     that are ever upon his lips.
Show me a man who is hard-pressed- and happy,
In danger- and happy,
On his death-bed- and happy,
In exile-and happy,
In evil report- and happy.

Show him to me.
I ask again.

So help me, Heaven,
    I long to see one Man of God!
And if you cannot show me one fully realized,
    let me see one in whom the process is at work -
    or one whose bent is in that direction.

Do me that favor!

Grudge it not to an old man,
    to behold such wonder.
Do you think I wish to see the Zeus or Athena of Phidias,
    sparkling with ivory and gold?
No. Show me one of you,
    a human soul,
    longing to be of one with God.


~ Epictetus (AD 55–AD 135), great greek stoic philosopher and mystic


* Photos of one of the most senior and well known Sufi Master of contemporary time, Shaykh Nazim (born 1922), may Allah bless him, guide all his beloved students and give him good health.
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Friday, May 28, 2010

Love those who are loved by Allah




1.
wallazeena amanuu 
ashaddu hubbali-llah

and those who securely believe 
are stronger in their love of Allah.
- The Quran 2:165



2.
A man once asked the sage Bayzid al Bistami, Allah sanctify his soul, to show him the shortest way to reach Allah, to which Bayzid al Bistami replied “Love those who are loved by Allah and make yourself lovable to them so that they may come to love you. 

Allah looks seventy times each day into the hearts of those whom He loves - perchance He may find your name in the heart of one such beloved -  then He may come to love you and forgive you your short comings!

3.
Its said that a friend of friend also becomes a friend. Thus who are befriended by God, the saints, the truly enlightened servants of God, the Most High - befriend them. But in order to do that, one must first find them. And even though they are essentially self-effacing and hidden, yet to find them is not something made impossible. For verily there is a not a time in human history that God's earth didn't contain them, no matter how hidden they remain under the cloak of God's Protection from the world.

Infact its known in the esoteric circle that the grace which sustain this world will cease when the earth will be barren of such true Friends of God, when the earth will be barren of hearts which intimately and knowingly remember God. When there will be not a single friend of God living on earth, the cosmos will be folded and a new reality will be given birth to. Then this planetary existence, these million galaxies will come to an appointed and pre-destined end, the promised heaven and hell will be brought near and the Judgment Day will be brought in the moment. Human soul will be resurrected and the Lord of Majesty and Glory will begin our final accounting.

So until the Judgment Day arrive, the Friends are here among us. And if you do not know the direction to find them, then ask those who know. And its an instruction of God preserved in the Final Testament. In the Surah of al-Anbiya, (the Prophets) Allah says, “then ask those who are people of remembrance  (ahl az-zikr) if you do not know.” To emphasize, the same message is repeated again in another place, in 16:43.

In the Surah called ash-Shura, which means Consultation ( 42:37) Allah describe the essential quality of the blessed ones as, "Those who hearken to their Lord, and establish regular Prayer; who (conduct) their affairs by mutual consultation; who spend out of what We bestow on them for Sustenance."

Thus to consult (not only in worldly affairs, not only for business but for spiritual benefit and guidance), to ask those who are ahl az-zikr, people of remembrance is a path towards illumination - it is partaking in the fragrance of wisdom, beauty and love from those who has wisdom, who embody beauty and who by the grace have perfected their love divine (Amor Divino).

4.
To have a place in the heart of the awliya's of the age, to have a place in the heart of true Friends of God are a tremendous blessing. Great awliyas, sages of the past traveled for ages and great distance to find the Qutub, the Spiritual Pole of the Time and became their servant for years after years.

Follow the shaikhs, the masters, the teachers of Truth, say the wise, discover their noble qualities, and, perhaps, thanks to their blessings, you will one day attain happiness. Sufis say, too, that the seeker must strive to win the love of the shaikh’s heart, because the hearts of shaikhs are the source of divine wisdom, and the murid, through the required diligence, sincerity, and loyalty to his teacher, will be enabled to acquire his share of this and, as a result, be honored with the blessedness of their mystical states.

To give an example, the great master Yusuf al-Hamadani, may Allah sanctify his Sirr, who was the teacher of Abdul Khaliq Gizhduvani, the founder and great mysticsaint of Central Asian School of Sufi Mysticism - he served two hundred thirteen shaikhs in his time, sometime carrying their goods, serving their food or simply being attentive in their presence.

When Jesus appeared on the land, most people remain oblivious but those with heart knowledge, came from far and away to visit him, to receive his blessings. Even the three wise men came from far east to receive the blessing of his presence and perhaps to initiate the baby Jesus with esoteric blessings. While in his mission, not everyone was interested in him. But those who had devotion and love in their heart, they hastened to see him, to hear his words of wisdom and to receive his glance.

The teachers of truth are heirs of the Prophets and Messengers. The Sufi Shaykhs are the heir of Prophet Muhammad, may Allah shower blessings on him and to find them, to be near them and sit in their circle of teaching is comparable to the role you could have had you were born in the time of the Prophets. Understand this wisdom. What happened in the past, is still happening within us. As it is in the horizontal time, so it is in vertical time within. The reality of human existence is such that no matter in what form, age and circumstances we are born and live, we are tested never the less for our sincerity, devotion, love and willingness to sacrifice for truth. If someone in his or her present life time doesn't feel the thirst to find such true human beings today, to be near them and to receive blessings from them - it can be safely said that such person, had they were born in the time of Krishna, Christ or Muhammad would display the same oblivious attitude as well and would remain blind in the same fashion as they are towards the successors of those great souls.

And Allah knows your coming and going 
as well as your staying.
- The Quran, 47:19

Hearts of the teachers of truth, hearts of God realized human beings are like rose garden. And such gardens exist in the world in present time as it did in the ancient time. Rumi says it best when he said, "If you go to the garden of the Heart, you'll have beautiful perfume like a rose." The perfume is best obtained, not from reading of past accounts from dead pages but being in real garden with alive flowers and flowing life-giving breeze - that is by being near the presence of the awliya, the saints of the time and by being under their gaze and love.

5.
The door of the God realized human beings are always open for sincere seekers of truth. Rumi, one who from being a proud teacher of religious doctrine became a sincere, devout seeker and God realized human being, thanks to his partaking the fragrance from his dervish teacher, Shams e Tabriz. Here is Shaykh Jelaluddin Rumi's invitation on behalf of the true Masters of Truth:

If you never searched for truth
come with us
and you will become a seeker.

If you were never a musician
come with us
and you will find your voice.

You may posses immense wealth
come with us
and you will become love's beggar.

You may think yourself a master
come with us
and love will turn you into a slave.

If you've lost your spirit,
come with us
take off your silk coverings,
put on our rough cloak
and we will bring you back to life.

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Thursday, May 27, 2010

the path of true befriending

1.
while tracing the path
of our befriending
you said, "you are learning only too well
the language of my heart,
a few words from your lips
                 equal a thousand gifts."

i said, "as this befriending
becomes a full moon,
we are as if growing
in each other's womb.
(how strange is that!)

       come closer and look!"

that explains the secret of this strange familiarity
of each others soul language,
time after time, age after age.

while taking a break from journey
contemplating on the beauty of full moon
on the side of silk road ruins,
whisper the Bedouins:
(like that) 'let this befriending glow!
        let it flow!

may our heart songs sing in unison,
     today, tonight and
                      in every new dawn.'



2.
"I befriend you so that you might become me and I might become you."
- Shaykh Abul Hasan to his intimate companion and successor Shaykh Mursi


Shaykh Abul Abbas narrated about how he came to meet the great spiritual master of his: "When I was still a young man, I came to Tunis from Mursi. I had heard of Shaykh Ali Abul Hasan ash-Shadhdhuli from someone who suggested that we should go to meet him. I replied that I could not until I had consulted with Allah (istikhartu'llah). 

That night, while I slept, I saw in a ru'ya (true dream, vision) that I was ascending to the top of the mountain. When I reached the summit I saw there a man dressed in a green cloak. He was sitting and there was another man seated on his right and another man seated on his left. He said to me, "I have found the Khalifah of the Time (khalifatuz-zaman)." Then I awoke.

After I had completed my morning devotions, the man who had invited me to visit the Shaykh came to me. Together we walked to the Shaykh. I found him in the same form that I had seen him on the mountain in my ru'ya. I was astonished. When he saw me said, 'I have found the Khalifah of the Time. What is your name?' I told him and he replied, 'You were raised up to me ten years ago.' Shaykh Abul Hasan said to Sidi Abul Abbas, "I befriend you so that you might become me and I might become you."

He accompanied our Shaykh from that day forward and never left him nor did he ever disobey him in anything great or small and walked in the light of teachings of our Shaykh until his end in this world of appearances. May Allah hallow both their Sirr and benefit us from their teachings.


- from the Orison The School of Shadhdhuliyyah, edited by Shaykh Abdullah Nooruddeen Durkee ash-Shadhili Rahmatullah Pin It Now!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Travelogue of a Bus Journey with Pir Ejaz Ahmed Jaunpuri

Recently I had an invitation to visit Kolkata, India to a friends wedding. Because of work situation (by God’s will, I work as a Technical Consultant which demand quite a lot of mind and its resources as well as time), until the last moment I didn’t know when I would be able to board for the trip. So as soon as I got the chance, I went directly to the bus station after office to get a ticket (Bangladesh shares nearby border with India and can be reached to the neighboring country within 12 hours by bus). I was offered a ticket early next morning which I took and this morning (Monday, 24 May, 2010) I boarded the bus to Kolkata, a city I adore very much for its rich history, heritage and because it’s a city walked upon by many great souls and also because my ancestors came from this part of the world (they originally came from Persia, modern day Iran and was responsible in spreading the message of Islam in West Bengal. A township by the name Sharmastpur of West Bengal is named after my great great grandfather Shah Sufi Sarmast, who was a majestic servant of God and awliya (friend of God), may his final resting place be perfumed).

Ok, back to my story from yesterday. As I boarded the bus I noticed some people with long flowing religious garb came to bade farewell to someone. Standing at the queue to the bus my eye caught to an angelic figure dressed in all white, head covered with a white cloth as well, a man of age about 60 who paused shortly at the bus entry and prayed silently and then entered the bus. I noticed a sense of serenity in the air circling the personality.

Curiously I asked one of the attendee who came to say good bye to this person, about his identity and I was told that he is Hazrat Jaunpuri of India. Jaunpur is a city in the northern India and has rich tradition of spiritual transmission and sufi tradition as well. The Sufis who hail from that region use the title, Jaunpuri at the end of their name to indicate their nisbat (connection) to this great land.

I gathered further information from his disciples waiting outside the bus that Hazrat (venerable) visits Bangladesh every year and stays for few month, travels at different places and give advice / discourses and initiation into the Sufi tariqa. They take their baraka from a number of ancient sufi lineage popular in Indian Subcontinent, namely: the Chishti, the Qadiri, the Naqshbandi, the Mujaddidi and the Muhammadi tariqa.

Knowing that Pir Jaunpuri is traveling all by himself in the bus, my heart was already willing to race to him. Wish I could sit near him, but sit arrangement was such that I was at the back row and he was sitting quite front.

While the bus started, the Pir after saying goodbye to his pupil got immersed in his prayer, sitting quietly in his sit but one could easily see his state of prayer. Eyes closed, the lips slowly moving as if busy whispering words of devotion to his Lord.

As the bus stopped for lunch break at a place called Magura, the Pir was asked if he would like to have his lunch. He said he had food with him and will not need to eat. As it was time for mid-day prayer for muslims, he asked if he could pray somewhere alighting from the bus. The bus conductor, who seemed to know who this man is, was very respectful towards him and told the Pir that he could pray at the canteen premise. When all got down from the bus for lunch, I was waiting for the Pir to have a chance to exchange my greetings with him.

So when he was getting up to alight I approached him. He clearly was a little frail because of his age and probably from the tiredness of the journey. I volunteered to take few of his belongs (a small bag carrying his passport and other papers I guess, two pieces of washed clothes which he wanted to changed into when he stand in the Presence of his Lord in prayer). With a smile he handed over me his belongings. We went together at the canteen where all the passengers of the bus alighted.

While the Pir was shown a prayer place in the not so clean floor of the canteen, I asked the canteen boy if there is a mosque nearby. He told that yes there is one, just behind the canteen. The Pir’s face lit up hearing the news and asked me to lead him to the mosque. He speaks fairly well Bengali language, with a mixture of hindi or urdu words here and there and north Indian sweet accent.

Just beside the canteen, there was a dusty road led to an one story simple mosque building. As we walked in the sloppy path, the Pir held my hand. He was very sweet and charming. Not only he was wearing a very humble garment, but it felt as if there was a permanent garment of humility made of light over him which you could feel and see the way he carry himself. The humility that such people embody is always something to learn from, specially when one is around them.

Upon reaching the mosque, he was again and again gave thank to God saying Alhamudulillah (all praise is due to Allah) for the opportunity to pray at the house of prayer, as every mosque is fondly called the House of Allah. Since a mosque is used only for remembrance, prayer and supplication, its always better to pray in a mosque when one can - the vibration of energy is always higher there because of many soul praying in unison around the day and night.

The time when we went, the mosque was empty as the congressional prayer time was yet to come. Upon arrival he changed into a new cloth and renewed his ablution (islamic mode of baptism that one performs by himself or herself with clean water, in arabic its called wudu, a practice of the Prophets and Messengers).

True Muslims who attain holiness, imitate the Prophet Muhammad, may peace be upon him, in every aspect and in all dimensions. One of the prime characteristics of our Beloved Prophet was that he was fashioned by what is titled as “harisun alikum, raufur rahim” ‘concerned for his fellow human beings, very tenderly compassionate’. As the Pir went to take his wudu before prayer, as I wanted to come with him outside, he turned to me and asked me to sit and rest. And also he expressed his concern that the people in the bus must not be delayed due to his time in prayer. There was such gentleness in his being. You can feel the fragrance of a being infused with light of truth when you are near them. The holiness surrounding him was engulfing.

After he came back, he spoke a little to me and couple of other people who were there. He spoke on the importance of prayer as Muslims do with the rhythm of the day. He imparted advice on worship and the necessity to obey what is commanded and not to approach that which is prohibited by God. He counseled about the problem of ‘only to obey which is commanded (fardh) while neglecting that which is forbidden. He gave example that many people pray but at the same time they continue to lie while they speak. To lie is forbidden and you must not only obey God in His positive instructions or commandments but also keep yourself clean from that about which we are asked to guard ourselves from.

I felt very grateful to be able to pray with him side by side. Then we came out of the mosque and with his hand he grasped mine as we walked together. The sweetness of his being has not left me yet. He commented how the people of ‘la ilaha illallah’ are brothers with one another, wherever they are. I said, yes Hazrat, this is a karamat (miracle). Until then I didn’t know that their lineage has a great being by the name Hazrat Karamat Ali Jaunpuri. The word ‘karamat’ reminded him of their great master.

By the time we came back to the bus, everyone has finished their lunch and got into the bus. I was thinking to myself silently, even though we didn’t eat our lunch, we ate another kind of nourishment. While I was thinking this, he immediately spoke on the same. He said, “Mashallah (as Allah wills), we ate something better than what these people ate.” We laughed together. It reminded me of something which is circulated amidst sufi circle that a true Sufi is gifted with the access to inner hearts. The holy ones often knows or secretly sense what people near them are thinking in their heart, thats why they are called ‘spy of the heart’. Thats why its said that be mindful what you think when you are around the awliyas (friends of God) because they know!

Then at the entrance of the bus as I retreated to let him get into the bus first, he said with twinkles in his eyes, ‘no you must go first, you are my staff and staff should be in front’. We laughed at his joke and I gotup to the stairs of the bus and he used my arm as his support to get up.

Even though I was nothing, even less than nothing compared to his spiritual station, his age and experience and his elevated achievements, yet out of his humility he thanked me many times for helping him with his ‘namaz’ (prayer). In the course of time he would mention this many times,

He had few heavy luggage with him, three bags infact, as he was on a four month long trip to Bangladesh. So when we halted at the Indian customs checkpoint, since the authority there recognize him because of his regular journey to Bangladesh as a spiritual teacher, they arranged for him to pass by without formal customs checking etc. He was sweet to ask me to follow him skipping the queue and he said to the customs officers, ‘iye meri shath hae. humko bohut madad kiya, humko namaz par haya.’ (he is with me. he helped me a lot, he helped me perform my prayer).

So thanks to the Pir we crossed the border much earlier than everyone else. Later on I went up to him at the bus for advice in terms of places of blessing to visit and he advised me and gave me addresses to go to a number of places where their earlier masters now rest in peace. When I asked his address, he provided his address as well as his phone number and his address in Bangladesh where he generally have his teaching gatherings every year.

There is another incident that caught my attention. At a bus halt when I went to him to collect his address, he was eating a banana and requested to excuse him till he finishes his eating. Then he quickly got up and got down from the bus to throw the peel of the banana. It was a lesson of ihsan for me. A lesson of always doing that which is beautiful. When almost everyone in the bus including me just put our banana peel in a small plastic bag and left it at the pouch of the front seat, he with his frail body got up from his seat and got down to throw it outside at a proper place. That tells their level of paying attention to every moment and every task.

When our bus arrived at our destination at Salt Lake, Kolkata, when the Pir found out that the person who was suppose to pick him up wasn’t there, without any trace of dissatisfaction or discomfort, he straight went to get a taxi cab to his destination. Before leaving his holiness blessed me many many times for helping him (I only wished if I could do more).

I remain grateful to be able to serve him in a very small capacity, in a very small span of time. May Allah bless him and keep him protected, wherever he may be. I don’t know about the rest of the trip, but I am already very happy for the gift of blessings to glimpse a holy one and to be in his presence in the beginning of this trip. Indeed Allah is Kind and Generous Giver to His servants.

- Sadiq Alam
Coffee House, College Street, Kolkata

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Saturday, May 22, 2010

How a Taoist Master sends his student to be a Sufi

In the 1960s and 1970s, I was very involved in martial arts. I studied several forms of karate (kenpo, shorinjo-ryu, gojo-ryu), judo, aikido. I studied wing-chun kung-fu with a student of Bruce Lee. After some years, my primary practice was tai chi chuan. This was not the slow and gentle tai chi "for health" - this was the martial art tai chi, with practice with opponents where you throw each other around the room at high speed, and weapons forms.

My teacher was a Taoist master named Chu. He had studied under Yang Chen Fu, one of the most noted Chinese martial artists of the 20th century. Sifu Chu was in his late 60s - early 70s, a small man, slightly built. He had a cheerful, charismatic presence, but when he wished he could "veil" himself, and become unnoticeable, almost invisible. (This may be a mystical attainment, although very, very good waiters do achieve the same ability.)

Since I was taller and heavier than most of his other students, Sifu Chu would use me as "dummy", to demonstrate techniques. Although I weighed about 230 lbs, and he weighed barely 110, he could with one hand throw me 30 feet through the air. He would tell me, "You punch at my head - really punch, no faking. I will demonstrate." I would give it my very best shot - and I would be sailing across the room, thinking, "this is amazing..."  After I had studied with Chu for a year, I knew the technique he used to do it - but in all the time I was with him, whenever he threw me, I never once felt him touch me when he did it.

Every class I took with Sifu Chu, at some point he would come up to me and say, "Your form is very good, but your heart is weak. You should improve your heart." Two or three or four times a week, he would tell me this, for several years. I kept expecting him to tell me some special Taoist breathing practice or meditation exercise for it, but all he would tell me was, "Heart is weak. You should improve heart."

Several years of this went by. I became one of the senior students. I would come early to classes to make sure the room was clean, the floor swept. One evening, master Chu showed up almost 20 minutes before the class. Chu had always arrived exactly on time, but would enter the hall unnoticed, and after about five minutes exclaim to us, "Why are you not practicing?" This day, he was early, unprecedented!

He came over to me and said, "I have found a practice to improve your heart. Come with me." He gripped my arm and led me out the door. We walked some way, and came to an empty storefront, with a "For Rent" sign in the window.

Chu said, "In my evening walk yesterday, I saw a group here doing a practice that would improve your heart." Then, he led me back to our practice hall (where we arrived exactly on time for class).

I spent a day or so playing phone tag with the rental agent, and finally found out that a sufi group had rented the storefront space for one evening for a zikr circle. I knew nothing of sufis or what they did, but at least I had the name of the group and a phone number. When I got to tai chi practice that night, I wanted to tell Sifu Chu what I had found out, but he waved my words away and said, "I have an important announcement!". The class gathered round him, and Chu told us that he was going to take a vacation. We all thought that was a great idea, and asked what he would do on his vacation. He said that he wanted to visit some mountains, and someone had told him that Colorado had very good mountains, so he would go to Colorado. We asked how long his vacation would be, and he told us, "Two weeks."

Two weeks went by. We met again for class, and master Chu did not appear. Concerned, we walked together as a group to his apartment. It was empty. There was no forwarding address.

Never let your Taoist master go to the mountains! That's how they lost Lao Tsu! The story goes that Lao Tsu had been the Imperial librarian, and was well known as a master of wisdom. Confucius, his contemporary, had said of him, "I have met wise men and sages, and I have met Lao Tsu. Lao Tsu is none of them, he is a dragon!" However, Lao Tsu had written nothing of his wisdom. One day, he left the capital, and was recognized by a border guard as he was leaving the country. The guard remonstrated with him, "You are such a great master, how can you leave without making a record of your philosophy?" Lao Tsu asked for a brush and ink. He sat at the guards' desk and wrote the Tao Te Ching, handed it to the guard, and made his way over the border towards the mountains. He was never seen again.

We had let Sifu Chu go to the mountains, and he was gone without a trace. "Cloud hidden, whereabouts unknown". All I had was his instruction to improve my heart, and the name of a sufi group. I tracked them down, and began to attend circles of zikr.

Three years later, I received an excited call from one of the members of Sifu Chu's old class. Walking through San Francisco's Chinatown, they had recognized one of Chu's grandaughters on the street. They rushed through traffic, and asked her, "Where is master Chu?" She had given them an address in Los Angeles.

I flew to Los Angeles. Of course there was no phone number, so I just went to the address. Came up to the apartment door in a high rise, and knocked. The door opened, and it was Sifu Chu. He looked at me and instantly said, "Ah! Heart much improved!"  After some conversation, he told me, "I have retired now. You keep doing this practice - better for your heart."

The sufis put up with me coming to zikrs. After a while, I began to notice that all the great sufi saints had Muslim names. After 4-5 years of doing zikr regularly, a shaykh in Cairo asked me, "Wouldn't you agreee, la illaha il allah?". I said, "Certainly". He then asked me, "Wouldn't you agree, Muhammad rasuulullah?" *. I replied, "He was observed minutely for decades by both friends and bitter enemies. If he was a fraud, or if he was deluded, it surely would have been noted. Since even his enemies could not find evidence against it, the only possible conclusion is, he was indeed a prophet."  The shaykh told me, "Then, you are a Muslim. You need to learn more - insh'allah, God will make it easy for you to learn." (He never asked me about what I believed; just about what I was willing to publicly agree to.)

I never saw Sifu Chu again after that meeting in 1979. Letters were returned marked "no forwarding address". No one ever ran into any of his family. Gone, no trace. That's my experience with a Taoist master.

I've kept doing zikrullah. Better for my heart.

Wa Allalho 'Alim!

As-Salaamo Aleykum, wa Rahmatullah, wa Barakata Hu!

- Contribution by Rashid Patch, as shared on Chishtiyya email group


* la ilaha il allah - is the statement of witnessing the truth of One God and Muhammad rasuulullah - is the statement of witnessing the truth that Muhammad is a messenger of God - are two central agreements upon which a person formally enters into Islam, the Tao (Way) of Divine Submission and become a Muslim (one who has intended to harmonize with Divine Will).

faman yuridi Allahu
an yahdiyahu yashrah sadrahu lil-islam

So whoever God wills to guide,
He expands his inner-heart to Islam.


Rashid Patch, may Allah bless his path and keep his 'better heart' protected, currently resides in Oakland, Califronia and can be connected on Facebook as well. Easiest to reach him is via his email: rashid_patch@yahoo.com

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Thursday, May 20, 2010

the phoenix of the purified self rises from the death ashes of the false self

~ Standing at the Edge of Infinity ~
On the Shores of Ocean of Silence - Ocean of Love



~ Preface ~

It took constant effort to keep from being overcome by the deadly, thick, black fury of what I called ‘the primal force of maya’ - the nuclear forces of life itself in its destructive aspect. I often felt that if I gave into its dark power I would die, but that is apparently what was happening anyway, an inner death caused by this raging force that was slowly annihilating everything in my existence layer by layer. Outwardly, I was active and healthy and functioned normally in the world. Yet inwardly I was dying, something I had never experienced before and was not familiar with. But what exactly was dying? I kept fighting against it - I wanted to live! 

For eighteen months the destruction gradually increased. It grew very dark. In one phase a tiny spot of light appeared... I reached out for it and it expanded to something I could hold onto, though I didn’t know what ‘it’ was. I could only think this must be a version of ‘hold onto the light’! Otherwise, there was no light, and seemingly no God.

~ Vision ~

Fighting against it for so long exhausted me. I grew so tired I unknowingly began to slip, to give into it. One afternoon as I tried to rest the annihilation suddenly intensified into a dense opaque vortex that pulled me deep inside its fierce winds as they spun toward a center. As my last fight was extinguished I slowly let go - to vanish forever. Death had won. It was a relief to finally surrender, but I was sad that I had to leave. I can hear the sound of the winds as I spiraled into the depths without moving a muscle physically, emotionally, or mentally - just waiting as I was hurled into death. 

But death didn’t come.  

At the deepest point of surrender it suddenly became very still and within a second I passed through an invisible ‘wall’ that I almost didn’t notice. In an instant I was on the other side looking at the most breathtaking ‘place’ I had ever seen. It is impossible to describe. I seemed to be standing at the edge of infinity - it was infinite. It was night, but unlike the thick black fury of destruction, this was a pristine, crystal, glowing night, perfectly still and silent.

It took a few moments for my perception to adjust to what I was seeing. At first it appeared as nothingness, then gradually the ‘air’ began to almost sparkle, not with stars, but with floating particles fine as powder that seemed to create a delicate glow. It was completely empty of forms, not even angels or spirits - yet it wasn’t barren. It felt and looked alive and vibrant, which was extraordinary because the stillness and silence were so profound only my soul could comprehend it while my heart and mind stood still in awe. It took my breath away. I fell deeply in love with it - or perhaps should say I had never felt such deep love, such vibrant joy, such stunning beauty, in such vast stillness and silence.  

I looked at it for a long time... then gradually became aware of the roaring winds just inches behind me on the other side of that wall. Evidently maya couldn’t enter here, it could not cross that wall. I began to realize that I was safe for the first time in a year and a half since this death had begun. I had gone beyond it. There is no death here. Yet, I had no idea what or where ‘here’ is – but didn’t care, so long as I could stay here forever. 

~ Changes ~

I had no choice, however, but to return to the world. As time passed, I thought of almost nothing besides this luminous night and was amazed to find that my memory of it always brought it back into view – the silence, stillness, beauty, and love are always there. It became part of my consciousness the instant it appeared beyond any need to understand it - although I had to make the effort to remember it so worldly concerns wouldn’t bury it again. This remembrance was so prevalent that the Night established itself in my ‘peripheral vision’ as I went about my day. 

- Unpublished Work | Copyright ©  1991 M. E. B.


~ Update ~
May 2010

Over the years curiosity also became prevalent and a fourteen-year quest to understand it unfolded. I found a small amount of information about it, including these points: 

What died? A portion of the false ego, the false ‘I’ – impressions accumulated over lifetimes fused into knots of illusion. This death occurs in small increments over lifetimes too, until we finally reach God Realization. When a portion of the false ego dies and the aspirant becomes more centered in God, an equal portion of a purified ego takes its place, a process that continues until the aspirant is completely established in God. This pure ego functions normally in the world with normal human attributes. It strives in worldly and spiritual matters, but also becomes quiet and still at times to allow one to rest in the Ocean of Silence.  


Inner death is a natural process that is beyond our control. A favorite symbol of Saint Teresa of Avila was the butterfly … its metamorphosis from the caterpillar symbolized our own inner transformation during spiritual growth. Of course, a dramatic death is not experienced in the journey to the Ocean during meditation, concentration, and contemplation. But letting go of the false ego – surrender – is key to clearing obstructions so that door can open. 

The ultimate definition of the Ocean of Silence that I have found is from Sadguru Upasni Maharaj. He calls it the ‘dark luminous light’ … it is infinite, and its edge, the borderland, is luminous. He says that it is... God.. Allah... unmanifest before and after creation. Even without a glimpse of this Ocean, knowing that it is there establishes an important thought, for, Upasni says, we become what we think. And the Perfect Master Ibn Arabi said that ordinary consciousness can glimpse it long before God Realization. 

And a New Day Dawns, Revealing a World Completely Transformed… 


~ Bird of the Dark Luminous Light ~


Years after the Ocean vision I had another lucid dream, an ‘inner event’ as Ibn Arabi called them.  The dream was in answer to a question I had about ‘what to do with these dreams’, if anything.  The Greatest Master appeared in the dream and handed me a book.  I opened it and across the double page was a magnificent, large, powerful bird.  It was somewhat stylized:  a front view from head to tip of tail, as if it were standing up vertically on its legs, with its wings fully spread out across both pages.  

It was so real that I ‘zeroed in’ on it to examine the details in its feathers, and realized that this bird was made of the dark luminous light.  As usual, there is no way to describe the glowing quality of it.  At first glance it seemed to be simply black, and in a way it was, except that it was made of the luminous night.

- Sharing of awakened visions by M. E. B., may Beloved God protect her heart and bless her soul


~ Thrice Annihilated ~

My Beloved, joy of my eyes
You are me as Myself, there where I am My companion
at every moment
May God be glorified!
You are my essence
Hand in hand let us enter together
into the Presence of the only Beloved
Let there be no more distinction between us Becoming One in Reality
Oh, how wonderful a thought!
and what subtle blending:
"The transparency of the glass, the purity of its contents 
becoming identical, give birth to bewilderment:
Is it the glass or is it the wine that we see? "

All life in the universe vanishes.
Moons are eclipsed, the sun disintegrates, the stars explode.
We are thus thrice annihilated (fana).
Similar to Annihilation Itself (fana fi'Llah).

And we ascend to the three degrees of permanency (baqa)
Following the example of Permanency Itself (baqi bi'Llah).

- Ibn Arabi, may God hallow his noble soul
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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Zen Master and the Christian

1.
A Christian visited a Zen Master and said, “Allow me to read you the Sermon on the Mount.”

“I shall listen with pleasure,” said the Master.

The Christian read a sentence and looked up. The Master smiled and said, “Whoever said those words was truly an Enlightened Man.”

This pleased the Christian. He read on. The Master interrupted and said, “Those words come from a Saviour of mankind.”

The Christian was delighted. He read on to the end. The Master then declared, “That sermon was pronounced by someone radiant with Divinity.”

The Christian’s joy was boundless. He left, determined to return another day and persuade the Master to become a Christian. On the way back home he found Jesus standing by the roadside. “Lord,” he said excitedly, “I got that man to confess you are divine!”

Jesus smiled and said, “And did it do you any good except inflate your Christian ego?”

2.
Sometime we are so blind inside our 'exclusivity' attitude (my way is the only way) that we forget some very basic truth of our reality of human existence.

First. we didn't decide to be born as how we are. (those who wish to argue on this point, coming up with some theological / mystical concept, saying that 'no, according to X tradition or Y teaching, its believed that we consciously chose to be born how we are born' - no matter how pleasing its to hear,  lets say to them, 'show me a person who remember choosing that', and they will fail that test). At least I have not come across a human being who could remember from pre-eternity that he or she decided to be born as human being having so and so as parents, choosing the land and religion and was sent according to that desire.' Even if we did, some kind of strange amnesia has made us oblivious to that.

The naked truth is that we didn't chose our being male or female, we didn't chose our parents, our geography where we were born, our skin color, nor do we choose our faith. For majority of humanity, its the religion of our parents or the land that we adopt, or take as our 'own' religion / faith / beliefs. Understanding this wisdom can help us greatly in preventing religious bigotry which is such a huge problem of our time. While its true that majority follow the faith of their land or parents, lets not forget that there is also a very rare band of sincere seekers of truth would leave that comfort zone of parental belief (and also self created idol of beliefs in personal space that make one very rigid and unaccepting) in search of essential and higher truth (that number is growing though, but still compared to the mass its still a very very insignificant number).

When we understand those above facts, specially the fact that it was our parents religion that mostly we adopted, and we could have easily adopted Buddhism had we were born in a remote mountain village in Tibet (thats the only system you see around, learn about and die into), or we could have easily be worshiping the "glory of the Creator" stamped upon the nature, if we were born in the wilderness of Australia among the the aboriginal people or among native people of a remote village in central Africa.

To every nation the Divine Will has appointed diverse acts of devotion which they observe, therefore let there be no dispute with you about this matter, but invite everyone to your Lord; most surely you are on a straight guidance. - The Final Testament 22:67

At any moment when we boast of our religious identity, our faith, God smiles at our vanity of trying to establish our right about something which is not even our making. God smiles at our ignorant arrogance because for it was His choosing in the first place and secondly by becoming arrogant of the appointed destiny we create further separation between us and our true nature. God Who's all Encompassing knowledge stop not at our outer appearances but sees through our inner heart's sincerity in any devotion we do, whether we bow down on the prayer mat as a muslim or offer a flower  in the early dawn to an icon who bring remembrance of the divine, like a daoist. Yes certain religions are losing its essence, the actual teachings are long lost and have lost their pure capacity to guide humanity, still we can not condemn a single sincere devotee, because only the One who sent him or her in that tradition has the right to judge the sincerity of their devotion, rituals and worshipful sacrifice.

There is this beautiful teaching uttered by Swami Vivekananda, disciple of great saint, Sri Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa, may God bless them both: "Condemn none: if you can stretch out a helping hand, do so. If you cannot, fold your hands, bless your brothers, and let them go their own way."

At different stages and moments in our life, in our engagement in the world of appearances, although we might continue to fuel our ego-self thinking that we are behaving "very religious" (or spiritual in that matter) as demonstrated in the story of Zen Master and the Christian, in reality we are demonstrating nothing but very low state of evolution as spiritual being by the very ignorance that is born out of religious pride. And the great beings of light who entered into the Truth completely have warned us saying that when we fall into that error, when we show disrespect to another human heart who might perceive the Divine and adore in a fashion which is unique to him, when we show disrespect out of ignorance and pride to that heart which might be secretly dearer to God, in an instant all our goodness, all our merits of life-long spiritual devotion could come to null, could come to mean nothing and we seek refuge  from such vain pride and false judgment issued from our still unpure mind. Only God, the Knower of the Hidden knows the true state of His servants and their hearts, the source of sincerity, remembrance and all adoration.

Do not judge by mere appearances.
- Blessed teaching of Christ, John 7:24

Say: "O Allah! Creator of the cosmic and planetary existence! 
Knower of all that is hidden and open! 
It is Thou Alone Who wilt judge on the Day of Accounting
between Thy Servants in those matters 
about which they have differed." 
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Monday, May 17, 2010

reward and renounciation

He who is looking 
for a reward 
is smaller than his reward; 

he who has renounced a thing 
has risen above it.
 

- Bowl of Saki, by Hazrat Inayat Khan 



Commentary by Pir-o-Murshid Inayat Khan:

When doing a kindness to others the first thing that must be considered is that it should be unselfish, and not for the sake of appreciation or a reward. He who does good and waits for a reward is a laborer of good; but he who does good and disregards it is the master of good.

- from  Character Building and the Art of Personality, The Law of Reciprocity


Life consists of a continual struggle for gain, of whatever kind it may be. Gain seems to be the purpose of life... But by a still deeper insight into the subject one sees that every gain a person has in view limits him to a certain extent to that gain, directs his activities into a certain channel, and forms the line of his fate. At the same time it deprives him of a still greater or a better gain and of the freedom of activity which might perhaps accomplish something still better. It is for this reason that renunciation is practiced by the Sufis; for with every willing renunciation a person proceeds a step towards a higher goal. No renunciation is ever fruitless. The one who is looking for a gain is smaller than his gain; the one who has renounced a thing has risen above it.

- from Character Building and the Art of Personality, The Law of Renunciation


Renunciation is not a thing that can be learned or taught. It comes by itself as the soul develops; when the soul begins to see the true value of things. All that is valuable to others, a seer soul begins to see otherwise. This shows that all things that we see as precious or not precious, their value is according to the way we look at them. For one person, the renunciation of a penny is too much; for another that of all he has is nothing. It depends on how we look at things. All things one renounces in life, one rises above. Man is a slave of the thing which he has not renounced; of things that he has renounced he becomes king. This whole world can become a kingdom in his hand if a person has renounced it. But renunciation depends upon the evolution of the soul. One who has not evolved spiritually cannot well renounce. For the grownup persons, little toys - so valuable to children, are nothing. It is easy for them to renounce this. So it is for those who develop spiritually - all things are easy to renounce.

~ "Sangatheka I, 29 - Renunciation", by Hazrat Inayat Khan (unpublished)

The Messenger and Sign of God, Jesus Christ, upon him be God's showering of blessings, said: "Do not take this world as a Lord - for it will take you as slaves. Entrust your treasures with One who will never lose them; for the possessor of treasure of this world fears the destruction of his treasure, but the possessor of the treasure of Allah does not fear the destruction of his treasure."


 Pearls of Muhammadan Wisdom
on Renunciation of the Worldly (Tark-e-Dunya)

Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him, said: "This lower world (i.e. its pleasures and duration) in comparison with the Life in the Hereafter is (similar to the amount of water) one gets when he dips his finger in the Sea. Let him then see what it returns with". - Al-Mustaurad bin Shaddad reported the above Hadith from collection of Imam Muslim

The Prophet said: “Be in this world like a stranger or wayfarer.” - Narratted by Abdullah bin Umar from collection of Imam Bukhari

One day the Messenger of Allah slept on a straw mat. When he stood up (we noticed) the straw mat left marks on the body of the Prophet (due to roughness of the straw mat). Ibn Mas'ood said, 'Oh Messenger of Allah! had you ordered us we should have spread (a comfortable bed) for you. (Upon that) the Beloved one of Allah said, 'I do not have any love for the (comforts of the) world. My relationship with the lower world is nothing but like a traveler who (while traveling) seeks shadow under a tree and rest there and thereafter leaves.' - Mishkaat, narrated by Abdullah ibn Mas'ood

The Prophet said: “I am not afraid that you will worship others besides One God, but I am afraid that the worldly life will tempt you and cause to compete with each other for it". - Narrated by Hazrat Uqba bin Amir from collection of Imam Bukhari

Allah's Apostle said, "If Adam's son had a valley full of gold, he would like to have two more valleys, for nothing fills his mouth except dust. And Allah forgives him who repents to Him." - Narrated Anas bin Malik

The Messenger of Allah said, 'By Allah, it is not poverty that I fear upon you, but I fear that the world (materialistic things) will be spread before you as it was spread before the nations that preceded you and you will compete with one another (resulting) in the world (materialistic things) destroying you as it destroyed them.' - Mishkaat

The Messenger said, 'Whosoever loves (excessively) his lower world, harms his final abode and whosoever loves (excessively) his final abode, will harm his lower world. So give preference to what is eternal over what will annihilate.' He also said, 'How perplexing! Indeed, it is most perplexing that the believer in the eternal abode pursues the allure of the deceptive, endangering house.'

'Let the slave then invest his soul in himself, invest his lower world in his final abode, invest his youth in his old age, and invest his life in his death; for the lower world was created for you, but you were created for the final abode. By the One Whom my soul is in His hands, there is no one who accepts excuses after death, and there is nothing after the lower world except the Garden or the Fire.'

Know that a man asked the Messenger of Allah, "O Messenger! Guide me to an action that if I do it Allah will love me and people will love me." The Messenger of Allah said, "Renounce the lower world and Allah will love you, and renounce what people possess, and people will love you."

Wings for your Heart 


Loving God is the only pleasure,
other delights turn bitter.
- Rumi, Coleman

First is the renunciation of the world
Second is the renunciation of the world hereafter
Third is the renunciation of the desires of the self
Fourth is the renunciation of everything other than God.

Everything shall pass except the ever abiding Divine Countenance.
- The Quran
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Friday, May 14, 2010

shadows of the ego-self (nafs)

1.
The hero's main feat is to overcome the monster of darkness: it is the long-hoped-for and expected triumph of consciousness over the unconscious. The coming of consciousness was probably the most tremendous experience of primeval times, for with it a world came into being whose existence no one had suspected before. "And God said, 'Let there be light"' is the projection of that immemorial experience of the separation of consciousness from the unconscious.
- Carl Jung, "The Psychology of the Child Archetype" (1940)

While coming back from a victorious battle the Prophet declared, "We are returning from a lesser struggle (jihad asghar) to a greater struggle (jihad akbar)." The companions explained, "What is greater struggle, O Messenger of God?!" And turning to them, the Messenger replied, "The battle against your own ego-self (nafs)."  
- Sacred Tradition of Islam

He is the One Who sends to His servant Manifest Signs, that He may lead you from the depths of Darkness into the Light and verily Allah is to you Most Kind and Merciful. - The Quran 57:9

2.
One of the glaring flaw of our time's spiritual embodiment for the majority of us who imagine ourselves to be spiritual, or have read tons of spiritual material and hence think we have become one, or lets say genuinely want to be on the spiritual path - for all of them, the flaw remains that we under-estimate, ignore or rebuff 'the shadow' aspect of the psyche (self / nafs / ego-self).

Call it 'shadow', blemishes, impurities, 'that which oppose the light' or 'blameworthy traits' - they all mean the elements of human psyche which are opposite to light, opposite to what buddha would call our "true nature", or what Christ would call, 'image of Father' or what Islam calls "fitra", 'the original purity'. The reality is made with opposites for the very construct of it to operate (heat-cold, day-night, up-down, masculine-feminine), so it is with the makeup of human self or psyche that shadow exist.

Somehow in this age of interesting cross-currents where long history of western church and its authoritarian role, suppression of scientific inquiry and breaking free from all of that - has given birth to a very interesting, complex set of dynamics when it comes to our religious and spiritual fabric. In one sense this is good and necessary to reclaim the essence of truth offered by religion and spirituality, freed from age old biases, conjectures and mis-interpreted dogmas covering over the essentials, but on another level it has some serious weakness of radical (and unhealthy) individualism which is susceptible to superficial spirituality with no 'real' progress on part of the individual in his or her journey of realization. The kind of spirituality that has become fashionable in our time, as characterized or called by names such as: new age, free flow, self-help spirituality, 'i guide my own spiritual growth' type has serious weaknesses and this weakness become exposed when the subject matter of shadow of the psyche or the blameworthy traits of the ego is dealt with. Contrary to what spiritual growth should embody, spirituality at present time is marked by where individuals play a superficial role of holiness for the sake of appearances and to feel good about themselves. This very characteristics of our modern day spirituality of 'feeling good about oneself' is exactly what fails when it comes to, first identification of the inner shadow which is deeply embedded in the psyche, (and hence second to impossible to trace for the majority of the seekers by themselves alone) secondly to stop its projections and third to do "real work" to transcend or getting rid of the shadow (in other word, 'purification', tazkiya in islamic sufi terminology).

Whenever the term shadow is used, immediately the great psychologist and mystic Carl Gustav Jung comes to our mind. He has done extensive work on this subject matter. Even though from purely traditional religious context (specially the extensive spiritual literature of the Sufis to be precise), 'shadow' may not necessarily mean exactly what Jung meant in his discourse. Yet Jungian framework, his life long study of human psychology and link to our inner self can be complementary. Jung was very clear about the necessity of recognizing the shadow within. For him it was not a question of if, but how. Carl Jung's concept of the shadow includes weaknesses, shortcoming and also instincts.

The shadow is an archetype. An archetype simply means that it is typical in consciousness for everyone. Everyone has a Shadow. This is not something that one or two people have. We all have a Shadow and a confrontation with the Shadow is essential for self awareness. We cannot learn about ourselves if we do not learn about our Shadow so therefore we are going to attract it through the mirrors of other people.

On the subject of why the shadow needs to be recognized, Jung wrote in "Psychology and Religion" (1938): "Unfortunately there can be no doubt that man is, on the whole, less good than he imagines himself or wants to be. Everyone carries a shadow, and the less it is embodied in the individual's conscious life, the blacker and denser it is. If an inferiority is conscious, one always has a chance to correct it. Furthermore, it is constantly in contact with other interests, so that it is continually subjected to modifications. But if it is repressed and isolated from consciousness, it never gets corrected."

From the end of the earth
will I cry unto Thee...
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.  
- Psalsm 61:2 

Jung recognized the difficulty of recognizing our own shadow, “it is a quite within the bounds of possibility for a man to recognise the relative evil of his own nature, but it is a rare and shattering experience for him to gaze into the face of absolute evil.”

"Filling the conscious mind with ideal conceptions is a characteristic of Western theosophy, but not the confrontation with the shadow and the world of darkness. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious." - Jung, The Philosophical Tree (1945)


3.
For any religious / spiritual tradition of any time in human history, the departure for the journey of self-realization, for our quest to arrive at Truth, the process of liberation, Nirvana or Moksha or to successfully participate in the alchemy when 'God becomes our eyes, hand and feet' begins by the work upon the self and that is essentially the purification of the self from its impurities, shadows, blameworthy characteristics. There is no exception to this most fundamental, yet most demanding work. Only recently in our transitory experiment with spirituality that we have forgotten about this, but fortunately genuine spiritual traditions such as Sufi Path (and surely other living traditions) not only place great importance on purification of the self, but provide reality map for the self to journey and to arrive at the goal of purification.

By the Sun and its (glorious) splendour;
By the Moon as she follows (the sun);
By the Day as it shows up (the Sun's) glory;
By the Night as it conceals it;
By the Firmament and its (wonderful) structure;
By the Earth and its (wide) expanse:
By the Soul, and the proportion and order given to it;
And its enlightenment as to its wrong and its right;
Truly he succeeds that purifies it,
And he fails that corrupts it!
- The Quran, Surah ash-Shams, 1-10

Purification of the heart and soul is so central to the Sufi Path that the very term "Sufi", as many point out, is derived from the word, 'safa' which means purification. There is a whole discipline called "Tazkiyya" in Islamic sacred knowledge that deals with the process, methodology, practical aspect and practices of purification of the self.

The fact that purification is so central is without failure can be found in every authentic spiritual tradition. For example, among the fragmented teachings of Christ as preserved in the New Testament, we find the serious emphasis by him on confronting the shadow, specially for those who suffer from religious identity delusions (in modern day's context read 'spiritual identity delusion' ). In one of his more intense criticism directed to those present at the temple, Christ said, "O Blind religious one! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.. Woe to you, teachers of the religion, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean. In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness."

The mastery of a master is demonstrated by his or her ability to first, purify himself or herself from the blameworthy characteristics of the self (nafs) and then those who come in his or her circle of influence, the students, companions, pupil. The great illuminated beings, the buddhas, bodhisattvas, rasools, nabis, saints and awliyas were given this tremendous power to inspire, to demonstrate and to exert influence to purify others around them. A real teacher give his student a practical map for  purification through teachings, ritual practices, practical engagement in real world and in various other methods - collectively which become the alchemical process through which purification happen. And the role of the teacher is central in the process because by very nature, the ego or psyche itself doesnt want to face its shadow, deficiencies and weaknesses, which an authentic master has the ability to recognize and hence can see from outside to provide its right 'treatment' and 'medicine'.

It is He who sent to an unlettered messenger from amongst themselves, reciting to them His signs and purifying them (wa yuzakkeehim) and teaching them the Book and the wisdom even though before they were clearly in error. - The Quran, 62:2

A true master is void of shadow. In Islamic sacred tradition, the Prophet himself is described by his intimate companions as someone who didn't have a shadow. He was so pure in his embodiment, may Allah's pure love surround him, that he became shadowless. That is the fitting description of a true guide, murshid.

4.
As a living tradition, carrying both inner and outer truth teachings transmitted from one human heart to another, tracing back to great illuminated beings - the Sufi Path provides an unparalleled and unmatched guidance and 'ways' that leads to 'real' purification of the self and this result is readily available to witness for anyone to see among the students / followers of any authentic Sufi Path guided by a Sufi Teacher. No matter where in the world, either in the east or west, among the company of sufis one can find human beings of the highest moral and spiritual purity and God is our witness what we speak.

Since without making the container pure (remember the parable of Christ), the vessel can not supply pure water - similarly central to Sufi Path is the purification of the nafs (self-ego) which when purified become the unbound container of divine consciousness. And purification begin by becoming conscious or by recognizing that which is impure and those traits or the shadow aspects of the psyche - as rightly pointed out by Jung as well.

"The shadow is a moral problem that challenges the whole ego-personality, for no one can become conscious of the shadow without considerable moral effort. To become conscious of it involves recognizing the dark aspects of the personality as present and real. This act is the essential condition for any kind of self-knowledge." - Jung, Aion (1951)

Different sufi orders provide different reality map (they can be called reality map because of the usage of different symbols, language, legends like a map to describe the terrain of the self) for recognizing the shadows within and how to overcome them. Essentially their goal is the same and various order adopted various method through the grace of the great masters of that particular path.

In terms of recognizing the shadow, the Halveti Jerrahi Sufi Path delineate Sixty Eight blemishes of the nafs which becoming conscious about - can be worked upon and purified from the nafs for the seeker to progress on the path. Its worth noting that the number 68 is not the point because as a matter of fact, the shadow aspect of the psyche can be categorized in many different levels or categories and the numbering is for convenience only. For the Jerrahi Halveti Sufis they take these 68 blemishes as something to work upon and there is wisdom and practicality in it.

To clean the nafs of the 68 blemishes listed below is the beginning of good adab (spiritual etiquette) which is the greater part of Islam and of Sufism (Ihsan). These are like thorns growing in a barren field and show you the ugly attributes of the heart (shadows) which surface and become visible. Avoid them and beautify yourselves with the opposite of every one of these faults, because the prayer which pleases Allah and which brings you closest to Him is to have beautiful adab.

   1. Ujub – to be proud of one’s spiritual state
   2. Riya – to show off
   3. Kibr – arrogance
   4. Hasad – envy
   5. Bukhul – miserliness
   6. To be vengeful
   7. Kufr – faithlessness, ungratefulness, covering up the truth
   8. Bid’at- to distort religion and tradition
   9. Kufran-i ni’met – to deny the giver of gifts or to belittle the gifts
  10. To be dissatisfied and complain about one’s state
  11. To cease to have hope for Allah’s Mercy
  12. To be sure of Allah’s punishment
  13. To condone tyrrany and help tyrants
  14. To speak against decent people
  15. To keep the heart attached to this world
  16. To keep wanting to be a leader, craving for power
  17. To expect approval and compliments
  18. To fear criticism
  19. Not to be able to prevent oneself from wanting (craving)
  20. Instead of wishing to learn the truth, being an imitator
  21. To fawn (flatter) over people for personal benefit,  to court favor
  22. To be happy about disasters that fall upon people, even your enemies
  23. To be a coward
  24. To be angry
  25. To be a tyrant (oppressor)
  26. Not to keep one’s word
  27. To believe in bad luck
  28. To think unjustly about people
  29. To love one’s property, material possessions
  30. To be overly concerned with the world and the worldly
  31. To be ambitious after worldly gains
  32. To lead an irresponsible life
  33. To mix oneself into affairs that do not concern one
  34. To be undignified
  35. Not to keep the time of one’s devotions (spiritual / religious practices, worship) due to laziness
  36. To be shameless
  37. To lament the loss of things
  38. To gossip
  39. To be stubborn
  40. To be an egoist
  41. To be a hypocrite
  42. To cheat
  43. To be brutish
  44. To be dishonorable in relations with women
  45. To be lustful
  46. Not to accept one’s error and continue insisting on it
  47. To be afraid of poverty
  48. Not to believe in destiny or to talk about destiny
  49. To make oneself depressed
  50. To take pleasure in belittling others
  51. To be indiscriminately unaffected and happy even when other suffers
  52. To be insincerely kind and fawning over rich people
  53. To be disdainful of the poor
  54. To boast and be proud of one’s past
  55. To show off one’s physical prowess
  56. To belittle others
  57. To like to talk long unnecessarily
  58. To be self centered in conversation
  59. To forget about one’s own shortcomings and be preoccupied with the shortcomings of others
  60. To exclude from one’s heart the fear of Allah and the shame and sadness of one’s state
  61. In distress to make excuses and to fall back on and encourage the nafs
  62. To decline to help in a struggle for Allah’s sake
  63. To pretend to be friends with one’s enemy
  64. To be insincere in one’s work
  65. To set traps for others
  66. To identify with the world to the extent of forgetting Allah
  67. To take pleasure in people’s suffering
  68. Not to be sorry, suffer and repent because of one’s mistakes


May Allah help us to recognize our own shadows, save us from its projections which make us oblivious to our own blameworthy character traits, which prevent us from becoming perfect like our Heavenly Father, which prevent us from becoming true khalifa (vicegerent, representative of God, bridge between heaven and earth) on earth, and we seek strength and help from Allah an-Nasir, God, the Sole Helper to purify us, both within and without.  

la haowla wa la quwwata illa billah, there is no power and transformation except by Allah.

Who may ascend into the summit of the Lord? And who may stand in His holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, Who has not lifted up his soul to falsehood.. - Psalm 24:3,4

Blessed [are] the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
- Beatitude of Christ

Indeed whosoever purifies himself (man tazakka) shall achieve success. - The Quran 87:14

5.
ayuzubillahi minan nafsi ammara
seeking refuge in God from the inciting ego-self
ayuzubillahi minan nafsi lawamma
seeking refuge in God from the blaming ego-self
bismillahir rahmanir rahim!
in Your Name, O Infinitely Merciful, Singularly Compassionate!


O Beloved, O Light of Existence!
Truly in Your Light we see both within and without!

Ya Nurun ala Nur!
Ya Nurun ala Nur!
Ya Nurun ala Nur!

Make visible our shortcomings, our mistakes, our shadows to us and if we forget, if we make mistake after You have shown us Your Signs and after You have given us Your guidance - if we fall like a child who is learning walking, like a Tender Mother condemn us not, avert not Your Gaze of Love from us. We place our highest trust upon Your Boundless Grace, upon Your Tenderly Forgiveness and upon Your Love, O Love Itself!

Open our eyes.
Ya Fattah! Ya Baseer!

Inna Anta Nurus-Samawati wal-Ard
Inna Anta Nurus-Samawati wal-Ard
Inna Anta Nurus-Samawati wal-Ard

By the Honor of Your Infinite Compassion, raise us not blind in the promised Afterlife,
By the Honor of Your Uncompromising Love, keep us not blind in this precious existence.

Accept our prayers, our cry, our longing, O Lord of Existence.


gentle reminder: God willing, for real progress towards the purification of the ego-self, please make a habit of getting familiar with the 68 blemishes, read and know them, commit them to heart, watch over them, remain vigilant when such traits surface either subtly or otherwise in you ego-self, in engaging in the world, interacting with others and seek refuge in the Sole Refuge, in our Creator Lord from them and journey towards the goal of 'be ye holy as your Heavenly Father is the Most Holy, al-Quddus'.

We bear witness to the reality of One God,
and we bear witness that Muhammad is God's chosen Messenger.



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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Muraqaba, Mukashafa and Mushahadah

Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim

May Allah's Blessings be upon our Leader of Spiritual Caravan of Eighteen Thousand Worlds, Muhammad Rasulullah and upon his noble heirs, every guide, the Shaykhs in the chain of transmission of baraka and 'ilm-e-ladunni, who drink from the Muhammadan Cup of pure Gnosis.


The following is from the teachings of Noble Shaykh Muhammad al-Jamal ar-Rifai ash-Shadhili who is a resident and teacher of Masjid al-Aqsa (Dome of the Rock Mosque, the Noble Sanctuary) and guide in the Shadhili Sufi Path. He carry both the holy blood of the Prophet from his noble family line and also from the lineage of spiritual transmission that goes back to the Prophet himself.  May Allah be pleased with him, sanctify his students and give him good life. The Shaykh has been living on the Mount of Olives in the Holy City of Jerusalem since the year 1959 and since 1994 he visits United States every year to see and to give freely to his thousands of spiritual children whom he calls 'beloveds'. The texts that follows are from his book of teachings, He Who Knows Himself Knows His Lord (man 'araf nafsahu 'araf rabbahu). The copy of the book is available from Sufi Gifts site.


Al-Muraqaba

Know, my beloved, that internal vigilant watching (al-muraqaba) means that the slave has firm knowledge that the Lord is watching him in all of his states. His sojourn continues to Allah until he relinquishes his blameworthy qualities to remain in the praiseworthy qualities. He looks by the heart to Allah, Glorious is He, observing and visualizing the Real (al-Haqq) in everything, so that when the self is about to commit a disobedience, he finds the Real watching, feels ashamed, and turns back.

If you observe Him while you are eating, you will find that He is the One Who brought the food to you without any power and strength from you, and He is also the One Who moves your hand to pick up the food you are eating. He is the One Who gave you the ability to raise the food to your mouth and He is also the One Who moves your mouth and make your saliva flow. He is also the One Who created in you the power to enjoy (food); then He is the One Who leads the food to your stomach, and gives your body energy and order. He is the One Who disciplines you. So learn that there is no actual Doer save Him. If this meaning becomes strong within you, it will clarify your actions and unify the Essence (adh-Dhat), and when the mastery of watching (al-muraqaba) increases you will see that He is the Eternal for His slave without action! This is the meaning of witnessing (mushahadah) everything, but this is a tasting matter (dhawq) and the mind can not grasp it, and none knows it, except the family of attentive care and purified ones.


Unveiling (Mukashafa) and Witnessing (Mushahadah)

Know that unveiling (mukashafa) is the presence of the heart with Allah, Glorious is He and that witnessing (mushahadah) is the presence with the Witnessed. Witnessing is a consciousness in which the outer and the inner senses unite, that which demands this unity is a Light from the Mighty Witnessed that erases the darkness of the ego-self's veils and substitutes them so that the Real (al-Haqq) is seen by His own Light and all "otherness" annihilates by His manifestation. Nonetheless, witnessing is of many levels, such as witnessing the levels (themselves) and witnessing the intermediaries, which is the station of the intermediary between the seeker and the Ultimate End (al-muntaha). This is because to the seeker in the beginning of the matter, The Real reveals Himself in the epiphany of a live manifestation. But beyond that (level) there is the witnessing of the end ones (al-muntahiyyin), which is the highest station of witnessing.

It is seeing the unity in the manifestation, so that the gnostic sees everything and is not veiled from seeing the Real (al-Haqq) by seeing the creation; and although he is fully consumed in Him, he is not veiled from seeing the creation by seeing the Real (al-Haqq), Possessor of Glory and Majesty.

Witnessing the manifestation in the unity means witnessing the perfection of the holy essence of the One and the Only (al-Wahid al-Ahad). It is His manifestation to His Self with all the considerations of His Singularity and what it demands, and with all the characteristics included in the eyes of His Unity, such as, the Image of the Single Being manifesting eternally in the details of the levels of existence.

Allah ~ Allah ~ Allah
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